argggghhh! (for lack of better title)

just when you thought you’re a-ok already for having successfully pushed some bitter part of life aside, having gotten over what needs be and putting life in proper perspective, something pops on your screen making you vulnerable once again.you get disoriented for awhile and ultimately you lose the sense of security you have been enjoying you thought would last for eternity.but no, such a surprise on your screen has to come after only a month of living a normal life. you wished there’s a pill you can take to dart out these emotional toxins like what fibrosine does to the body but there’s none ( makes you resent magic johnson for having found a philippine herbal medicine that cured him of aids…unfair isn’t it? ).

because fibrosine won’t do, you decide to sip a cup of coffee hoping it’ll soothe you.it’s working fine but you haven’t taken your third sip yet it started to rain making you unbelievably homesick of something or someone you ought not to be if only to prove to yourself, more than anyboby, that indeed you’ve moved on. what’s worse is that you realize, it’s not just about being homesick but being envious as well.a dozen of " if onlys…" busied your mind and no matter what rationalizing you do the same was futile.

the eternal sidekick was right after all, supression is not getting over and vice-versa. next time, listen…some things are solved using a different formula.

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