i have never been put in a dilemma like i have now.

i reckon, despite my parents’ strictness ( like no parties allowed even if it’s official school event, 8 o’clock curfew and stuff…go figure ) they were never imposing. they never decide for us. they opposed my choice of courses even if they thought there were better courses for me. they did not object when i decided to work with my current employer.they never asked me to pay for anything, never gave me responsibility.in fact i recieved  allowance from them even when i have a salary ( and i’m such  good girl i never refused what they hand me). this has been going on for the last seven years.

i thought i would enjoy that set-up for eternity but no. my father suddenly decided to plan for my life some few months ago ( i do not want to divulge what his plan is…it would be a shocker…no it’s not about trying the stripping biz…UNQUALIFIED TO THE MAXIMUM LEVEL…MY PARENTS’ ARE WELL AWARE OF THAT!). two days ago my mother made known to me her agenda for me. my mother wants me to take an exam…dude we’re talking of reading materials equivalent to 3 big balikbayan boxes and more in what 3, 4 months? not only that, i am being made to quit my job…how cool is that?

my parents are not evil  (they’re the best parents anyone can have), it just is a little strange they are being too aggressive when it comes to securing my future. i must admit my job does not pay much i need them to shelter and feed me. i have no savings either. i love what i’m doing and i can’t imagine doing something else. but they are my parents. i recognize that i have to start taking care of me because they can’t be around forever. on top of that, they will need me to take care of them too sometime soon. how can i do that when i have no means?

the classic dead stars once again posts its classic question " did you ever have to choose between what you have to do and what you want to do ?".

i hope after tonight, this will just magically disappear i won’t have to choose ( to obey my parents or to do what i want )

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