i don’t like bad news

i thought passing by several newstands on the way to wherever’s a good thing. it saves a lot of money on a morning paper.i just have to stand and browse ( using only my eyes ’cause i can’t touch the papers if i’m not buying them ) through and i get the important news for the day ( except the news that says classes are called off…whew! ).

bad news about the country doesn’t get that much to me really. possibly because i don’t see its effect directly on me. but lately the headlines of soldiers dying or mutilated do get my attention and a lot of triggers have been aggravating my supposed nonchalance over what’s happening in the war zones.

first of all i just learned i have friends, some very good friends who are posted there. some former students, some old friends, some new friends, some husbands of very good friends.

a young wife texted me some few days ago saying her young husband’s heading to the war zone too. it broke my heart.

a couple of nights ago one of my favorite persons henry sent an unusual text messages. for the first time he sounded concerned and really he cared. his message said "ruthy bear, sad gale el situation del mga soldiers na mindanao. let’s pray for them". i said, i have been.

today, again the paper said 57 dead in basilan and there were 5 junior officers also dead. i had the compulsion to know who the 5 are. half-praying half wishing they’re not any one of those i know. not my friends or my baby brother’s.

just a couple of minutes ago, my phone lit. it’s a globe update on a soldier that survived ambush in surigao.

i think about the mothers that lose their sons. i think of sisters and brothers that are worried sick. i think of wives, young and all that cry. i think of babies who will grow up without fathers, of kids who will have to get used to not habing their dads come home on Christmases and New years and birthdays. it’s heart breaking. i suppose i can take these thoughts for as long as don’t know any of them.it’s utterly selfish but yes i can. my prayers everynight include first of all protection and safety of the people i know and the people i care about. i put effort into trying to be less selfish by praying for  everyone. afterall it’s the only contribution i have to abate this ugly situation.

i don’t pray for the war to end because it just won’t. there will be truce, cease fire and such but it won’t end. to think that it will in fact is wishful thinking.

i believe in prayers and faith moving mountains so i pray for cease fires and truce…that way there’s a greater chance of surviving the tragedies of war.

i don’t like bad news….

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