bleakness is my twin sister

i’m smitten anew. this was not my plan. i worked hard to forget during the war. "the war is my ally", this was my mantra. i was sure of the success rate, not a hundred percent but it was good. but one night, just like that, what i worked hard for crumbled to pieces for the nth time.

it’s a bliss but i can’t completely relish the moments.i hold back because what is here and now is undefinable…at least from my perspective.

i want to express myself like i do in my thoughts but i’m constricted by the changing complexion of this everyday encounter and i’m getting insecure and confused. i want a chance at this, and it seems bleakness is again staring right at me.

i hope to be relieved of this confusion. i hope it would be soon.

and…yes…i love the dog.

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